Appointment went well!

We went to our monthly OBGYN appointment. The doctor said all internal organs IE Heart, Lungs etc look normal. Thank Goodness! I only gained 5 lbs this month. So so far in 20 weeks I have gained 11 lbs. Which the doctor said is normal! Happy Dance. The doctor also said that it is ok to have a few tiny candy bars. Just try to eat a balanced diet. I am trying to do this. Sometimes I falter like last night with the Double Double from In N Out. Oh and the fries. I didn't have that much with the fries. I am not a huge fan of their fries. So we have set our next appointment for mid December. Hard to believe I am already at the half way point. I do feel very blessed. I will be counting my blessings this Thanksgiving. I just want a healthy happy baby this April! I am feeling more flutters and jabs which I tell future daddy about. I welcome all of the flutters and jabs. Talk to you all more later, have a great day!!

Movement and appointment.....

Our little Miracle has been active over the last few days. Which I think is a good sign. We are also going to see the doctor tomorrow. My food cravings have been all over the place. Everything from mini candy bars, Cheeseburgers, and bananas.We went to our favorite baby clothes resale store over the weekend. Future daddy was very nice and let me get a bunch of new clothes for our little miracle.
 Our oldest  fish now Scooter is swimming around and has gained weight. I am not sure if she is getting sick or not. She has started to lay on her side for a little bit. I didn't think that was a good sign when her brother Skeeter past last week. I really don't want to lose another fish baby. I don't know if I can handle that. I finished my first baby afghan and I have to say I think it turned out pretty well. It has a few mistakes, but then again only G-d makes things that are perfect. I am now working on a baby sweater. This is my first attempt at a baby outfit. I have only made one other outfit and that was a jacket for my stepmother. I gave it to her because I didn't care for it. My stepmother loves it and has gotten many complements on it. I am not sure what we are going to be doing this year for Thanksgiving. I have to be honest I have never been a fan of Thanksgiving. I find it is just an excuse for people to overeat. Do people really give a ton of thanks? These days people seem to want to go to the mall for deals on more crap that they don't need. This year I am really not getting anything for anyone. I might get a few things for our little miracle. I got our little miracle the cutest bear online. It arrived today from Build a Bear. Sorry that I don't write everyday. Sometimes I don't really have much to say. I am thankful for anyone who is nice enough to spend the time to read my blog. Have a good evening everyone. I will keep you guys posted on what happens at our doctor visits.

Sad to say... Our beloved fish Skeeter past away last night.

Our beloved fish Skeeter died last night. I had him for about two and a half years.Which as the fish guy told me, is a LONG time in the life of a gold fish. He was a wonderful and sweet gold fish. He was orange and thin. He grew to be very long. He was with me through one of the toughest times in my life. I will never forget my baby Skeeter.  Sadly he ended up getting a case of bloat about a week ago. Jeff and I tried everything, peas, medician, and changing out some of the water every night. He hung on for about a week and past last night. I have cried for hours. He was my little fish son. I didn't want our little girl Scooter to be lonely. So today I went out and got Scooter three new siblings. One is round and orange. The second is small and white with the cutest little puckered mouth. The third is a orange fish with brown around all of his fins. I was not to sure about him, but he is calm and sweet. I think he will bring a zen to the tank. I am waiting for Jeff to come home to name them. I have a feeling I will be keeping to the Muppets theme. Yes, Skeeter was the name of a Muppet, from the Muppet Babies Cartoon. I hope to post pictures soon.  . They will just be in my heart in a new way. Hopefully be good company for my sweet little girl fish Scooter.

Going for our 18 week ultrasound tomorrow!!!

Future Daddy and I are going for our 18 week ultrasound tomorrow. I am very excited about this. I am not sure if he is or is not. He does not really show much emotion about anything. It is his personality.I am hoping when we see the new ultrasound he at least smiles. I do not expect tears. We do NOT want to know the sex of our little miracle. I think we both want to be surprised. I feel there are no more surprises in life. One amazing thing happened last night. I was lying on my left side in bed. It seems to be the only side I am comfortable on these days. I felt what seemed like a little jab. Only for a second. On my ride side of my tummy.  I have a friend who said she says it was the baby getting comfy.  I do look forward to any sort of flutter or jab! Yesterday afternoon when future Daddy  reading Toy Story, they made a book out of the movie. I felt a flutter. I really think the baby is starting to know our voices!! This makes me so excited. I still have to remind myself to sing in the shower. I keep forgetting to do that!! I am just hoping for a healthy happy miracle baby. I am trying not to worry about anything. Easier said than done with my personality. The funny thing is that everyone is telling me how calm and relaxed I am. I find this to be a true statement. I feel very Zen like now that I am pregnant. I am really hoping that we can still have a dvd and photos. I want to share it with friends and family. I have been told by many friends that the tech will be able to show us the baby without showing us the gender. I am really looking forward to see what is in store for us tomorrow.

Yesterday's feeling.....

Yesterday morning and even on Saturday I was Craving a bagel. I mean really wanting a bagel badly. To the point where I was lying in bed Sunday morning at four A.M. and wondering what time they opened. I was going to go get one myself. Luckily Jeff was very sweet and after his shower he went and got me not one but two bagels. My usual which is a very darkly toasted sesame bagel with butter. I finished it up and wanted the other one. I know carbs!! I say who cares. It isn't like I am doing this every single day. He or She tells me what they want me to eat. It wanted the second bagel. The amazing thing was I actually FELT a real BIG FLUTTER!! I have to say I think this was the first real movement that was not just a tiny flutter. I started crying like what else a baby!! Get the pun!  I also got a few more cute outfits for our miracle. Started to knit a afghan. I checked with my friends. They said it is ok. Plus it will keep me calm. I really need to keep calm. So what else besides knitting keeps me calm. I have to say not much. We are going to the doctor tomorrow for our appointment. I am both excited and nervous. I am trying to eat healthy. Then my brain screams ICE CREAM a few nights a week. We also finished up our baby registries at BuyBuyBaby and BabiesRUS. I have to say I feel a sense of relief. I wanted to get that done before I got to big to walk around the aisles. I will keep you guys posted on what happens at the doctor appointment tomorrow.

Freaking out!! I will tell you why!!???

Freaking out!!! The reason you ask. Don't worry I am fine so is my bundle inside of me. Thank Goodness. Plus we are going to the doctor on Tuesday. I am freaking out because the girl name I have picked out is now on a list of 28 names on the rise!!! What do I do??!! Do I ditch this name I have wanted since I was 10 years old. I knew this was going to happen!!! Do I go with a beautiful biblical name? Can I use a Jewish name that I love, but that a friend has? Not naming the baby after this friend. I just like her name. Do I go with the name I have been using to call my little miracle. I think boy, everyone else thinks it's a girl. I can't ask the doctor what we are having. Jeff and I swore we don't want to know. I think it's more fun and better that way. I am  fine with a boy. I would love a boy. I heard boys show you more affection. Then again, I have heard boys are more of a handful. I am not sure at 40 if I am going to have the energy to run around chasing a wonderful bundle of baby boy excitement!! I might of when I was in my early 20's or even my 30's. I will be the one spending most of the time with my bundle of joy after Jeff has to go back to work. So any suggestions on girl names? Seriously I am soooooo bummed right now!!! I don't want her being one of many with the name I have wanted since I was 9 or 10 years old!!!

I'm pregnant!! Trying to figure out baby names if it is a boy...

I am pregnant. We don't want to know what we are having. So we are looking up boy names tonight. Jeff's suggestions so far have been Grover and Carlton. My answer to those names are. I don't want to name my son after a blue Muppet or a weird guy from Fresh Prince of Bel Aire. Then he suggested Willis. I said back to him. "What are you talking about Willis."- reference from Difference Strokes the 80's tv show. He also suggested Darryl. My response was, this is Darryl and my other brother Darryl. From another 80's show Newhart. I am starting to think he just wrote 80's tv show characters into the google search bar. Is he going to suggest next that we name a boy Twiggy from Buck Rodgers???!! I am not sure if I want to keep laughing or hit him with a flip flop. Jeff has an old pair of blue flip flops he wears. I have a feeling he is doing this on purpose. I told him, fine I will name the baby and he will have no say in it. I think he wants a say. So let's see what 80's or 90's TV show character Jeff comes up with next!!!