Running errands with a 3 month old in tow.

Today was the day for running errands. I was running around from 10:30 AM until almost 5:00 PM. Let's just say starting off that my son was NOT a happy camper at first. He was crying his little head off. He does not like getting buckled in. He does not understand Mommy is doing this for his own good and not to make him unhappy. After I finally got him in the car. Figured out my first location with directions. My son finally fell asleep. I was lucky to pick up a ottoman with a storage area for only $5. I do LOVE a deal. Then I was off to my hair appointment. I made it right on time! I love being on time. I don't like keeping people waiting. I know that time is money to someone with a job. Another one of my friends works at the same salon. She was so very sweet and got my son a cute frog blanket. She knows I love frogs and most of the items he owns has a frog theme. He loves it already. It is so soft and cute. The great new is that my sweet son slept for about 3 hours. I was in shock. He let me get my hair done and have lunch! He did wake up crying for a diaper/wardrobe change. Then he wanted to be nursed. It worked out very well since my friend and hairdresser had another person come in at that time. Once the nursing was done. I was all ready to get my hair washed out and cut. I decided this time to put some dark pink in my hair. I might be 40 years old, but I don't feel it and have been told I don't look my age. That I look to be in my early to mid thirties. I needed a change with my hair. I was looking a bit to mommyish. I know it will take awhile to get my body back. I am not in a rush. I just needed a bit of a pick me up. When I got home, Jeff was there to greet me. He was lucky enough to get off of work early. So hopefully we will have a nice relaxing fourth of July weekend. A time to celebrate and enjoy being a family. Have a wonderful fourth of July everyone!

What Motherhood means to me.

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote on my blog. I found out I was pregnant. I am not sure who I was more shocked. Jeff or myself. I remember running out of the  bathroom holding the stick with the two pink lines. Yelling and crying at Jeff. "You're going to be a Daddy!" I think you could of probably seen the color drain from his face. We had a failed IVF a few years earlier. The doctor told us, my eggs were not very good. So the chances of us getting pregnant were not great. Our son was breech for about 80% of my pregnancy. In many ways I think he was supposed to be. I have never been able to handle pain well. My water broke the day before my C-Section was planned. So I had an emergency C-Section. I still remember crying, freaking out at Jeff when my water broke all over the floor of our tiny apartment. Jeff got me to the hospital in about 3 minutes and 20 seconds. The amount of time it takes for the light to change. One advantage of living down the hill from the hospital! I still remember both of us crying when we heard our sons first cry.
Fast forward and now I am the very proud and happy mother of a three month old baby boy! To say that I am over the moon about him is an understatement. I probably drive all my friends on Facebook nuts with all my videos and pictures. I probably take about 30 pictures and 2 videos a day. I don't post all 30 pictures, maybe I post 10 lol. I love looking into my son's eyes and watching them light up when he sees me. I love making up songs and watching him coo or say aww. I love reading to him and singing.  Jeff and I are still together. He is an amazing father. My dad was not sure if Jeff was going to be a great father. Jeff is amazing. Our baby boy is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my whole life. He is so expressive! You would never think of a three month old to be an old soul but I really think he is. I never thought I would be ok with poop and spit up but I am ok with that. I am lucky I have not had to deal with vomit yet. If that happens, I will probably throw a towel over it and wait for Jeff to get home.
Jeff and I are still not married. I am not sure if we ever will get married. All I know is that he loves me, loves our miracle baby boy and is happy with the way things are now. I love my life and would not change it for anything in the world. As I have always been told, you make plans god laughs. I did not plan to get pregnant with my son. All I know is that at 40 years old. I am taking every single minute and cherishing it. I know how lucky and blessed I am. Not everyone gets to be a parent. So if you don't mind me sharing stories in the future about Jeff, myself and our miracle baby boy. I hope you will start reading my blog again if you did in the past. Or if you are new to my blog, welcome and Thank you.

Happy Thanksgiving... Happy second night of Hanukkah!

I would like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! I am very thankful this year. I am lucky enough to finally have my dream come true of being pregnant. I am Thankful for Jeff and my family. We are having a low keyed Thanksgiving. We are just staying in the two of us and having Boston Market. I have never really been a huge fan of Thanksgiving. I don't plan on hitting any of the malls or stores today. I am going to wait. I know they are still going to have some amazing deals later on in the year. Not to mention, I have a feeling they will be having more deals for the rest of the month. The stores want money. I am waiting for Jeff to finish his list. Jeff and I celebrated the first night of Hanukkah last night. My dad was sweet enough to let me have the electric menorah that has been in our family for decades. I am not supposed to breath in candle smoke or fumes. It was wonderful having Jeff say the Hanukkah blessing with me. I am looking forward to the next 7 nights. Also Jeff made the most amazing latkas ( Potato Pancakes) for us. I have to say they were so delicious. I can't wait until he makes more tonight. I am not really a great cook. I am more of a baker. I will be starting to cook more soon. Since I think Jeff will want more home cooked meals when our little miracle arrives in April. I wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving and a wonderful and special Hanukkah!

Well this what has happened fish wise.

We got two new fish last night. They did not even last through the night. So we are going to totally clean out the tank and rinse it for about a month. We went back to Petco and the very nice young lady there helped us. She said she has also had problems from the fish store we went too. So we ended up getting a pretty dark blue male Beta fish we have named Squishy. Hopefully Squishy will be OK in his own little tiny fish bowl. Kermie our new gold fish baby so far is holding on. So fingers crossed she stays alive. She is in her own tank since she is the last remaining gold fish. We did everything that we were told to do at the fancy store. So I think from now on we are going to stick with Petco. That is where I had purchased the late Skeeter and Scooter. So I guess the lesson learned is more expensive does not always mean better. At least when it comes to fish babies. As for the little miracle in my tummy, I am having some more moment then I have in the last few days. Future daddy does not seem as excited as I am. Maybe because he is dealing with the cleaning out the fish tank.

Appointment went well!

We went to our monthly OBGYN appointment. The doctor said all internal organs IE Heart, Lungs etc look normal. Thank Goodness! I only gained 5 lbs this month. So so far in 20 weeks I have gained 11 lbs. Which the doctor said is normal! Happy Dance. The doctor also said that it is ok to have a few tiny candy bars. Just try to eat a balanced diet. I am trying to do this. Sometimes I falter like last night with the Double Double from In N Out. Oh and the fries. I didn't have that much with the fries. I am not a huge fan of their fries. So we have set our next appointment for mid December. Hard to believe I am already at the half way point. I do feel very blessed. I will be counting my blessings this Thanksgiving. I just want a healthy happy baby this April! I am feeling more flutters and jabs which I tell future daddy about. I welcome all of the flutters and jabs. Talk to you all more later, have a great day!!

Movement and appointment.....

Our little Miracle has been active over the last few days. Which I think is a good sign. We are also going to see the doctor tomorrow. My food cravings have been all over the place. Everything from mini candy bars, Cheeseburgers, and bananas.We went to our favorite baby clothes resale store over the weekend. Future daddy was very nice and let me get a bunch of new clothes for our little miracle.
 Our oldest  fish now Scooter is swimming around and has gained weight. I am not sure if she is getting sick or not. She has started to lay on her side for a little bit. I didn't think that was a good sign when her brother Skeeter past last week. I really don't want to lose another fish baby. I don't know if I can handle that. I finished my first baby afghan and I have to say I think it turned out pretty well. It has a few mistakes, but then again only G-d makes things that are perfect. I am now working on a baby sweater. This is my first attempt at a baby outfit. I have only made one other outfit and that was a jacket for my stepmother. I gave it to her because I didn't care for it. My stepmother loves it and has gotten many complements on it. I am not sure what we are going to be doing this year for Thanksgiving. I have to be honest I have never been a fan of Thanksgiving. I find it is just an excuse for people to overeat. Do people really give a ton of thanks? These days people seem to want to go to the mall for deals on more crap that they don't need. This year I am really not getting anything for anyone. I might get a few things for our little miracle. I got our little miracle the cutest bear online. It arrived today from Build a Bear. Sorry that I don't write everyday. Sometimes I don't really have much to say. I am thankful for anyone who is nice enough to spend the time to read my blog. Have a good evening everyone. I will keep you guys posted on what happens at our doctor visits.

Sad to say... Our beloved fish Skeeter past away last night.

Our beloved fish Skeeter died last night. I had him for about two and a half years.Which as the fish guy told me, is a LONG time in the life of a gold fish. He was a wonderful and sweet gold fish. He was orange and thin. He grew to be very long. He was with me through one of the toughest times in my life. I will never forget my baby Skeeter.  Sadly he ended up getting a case of bloat about a week ago. Jeff and I tried everything, peas, medician, and changing out some of the water every night. He hung on for about a week and past last night. I have cried for hours. He was my little fish son. I didn't want our little girl Scooter to be lonely. So today I went out and got Scooter three new siblings. One is round and orange. The second is small and white with the cutest little puckered mouth. The third is a orange fish with brown around all of his fins. I was not to sure about him, but he is calm and sweet. I think he will bring a zen to the tank. I am waiting for Jeff to come home to name them. I have a feeling I will be keeping to the Muppets theme. Yes, Skeeter was the name of a Muppet, from the Muppet Babies Cartoon. I hope to post pictures soon.  . They will just be in my heart in a new way. Hopefully be good company for my sweet little girl fish Scooter.